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Senior Year
2 min read
I'm in senior year in high school now. : P
This place still has the cobwebs of my younger self all the way from 6th grade it's insane.
Maybe one day I'll come back here and play housekeeper. Upload more. I might when I buy my new laptop I've been eyeing. It's been tough because even though I got a new job, it's still part-time and I got other expenses to worry about and all. My old laptop's been dead for a while now, so all I got is my phone, and I don't really use the DeviantArt app more than I use my Instagram art account at @Espritecat
I guess it's just easier? I mean, I upload shit on my Instagram (personal one) all the time so it's more in the same place. I still upload art every now and again more so on that than here. Here is just sort of sporadic. And when I remember I used to have a past here.
I might upload my newest works though. Another little burst of art. I don't have much though. I don't do a lot of art just because I don't really have the time and when I do, I prefer to rest my feet than to bend my back over some art that no one will really see or appreciate other than myself.
Anywho.
Thought I'd say hi. Don't know how many of my followers here actually still visit. It's been so long.
This place still has the cobwebs of my younger self all the way from 6th grade it's insane.
Maybe one day I'll come back here and play housekeeper. Upload more. I might when I buy my new laptop I've been eyeing. It's been tough because even though I got a new job, it's still part-time and I got other expenses to worry about and all. My old laptop's been dead for a while now, so all I got is my phone, and I don't really use the DeviantArt app more than I use my Instagram art account at @Espritecat
I guess it's just easier? I mean, I upload shit on my Instagram (personal one) all the time so it's more in the same place. I still upload art every now and again more so on that than here. Here is just sort of sporadic. And when I remember I used to have a past here.
I might upload my newest works though. Another little burst of art. I don't have much though. I don't do a lot of art just because I don't really have the time and when I do, I prefer to rest my feet than to bend my back over some art that no one will really see or appreciate other than myself.
Anywho.
Thought I'd say hi. Don't know how many of my followers here actually still visit. It's been so long.
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SICK
1 min read
Totally losing faith in this world right now.
I don't rant a lot, but this is life and death.
A friend's friend was very suicidal this morning over news her best friend was dying. Lung replacement surgery.
Recently learned it was all just one sick fucking joke.
A joke to a person who is literally looking for a reason to hang a fucking noose.
REALLY SICK.
I don't rant a lot, but this is life and death.
A friend's friend was very suicidal this morning over news her best friend was dying. Lung replacement surgery.
Recently learned it was all just one sick fucking joke.
A joke to a person who is literally looking for a reason to hang a fucking noose.
REALLY SICK.
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Rrrright Back at Ya' -w-
1 min read
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEYYYYYY YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaa 
YOU GUYS FLIPPING READY FOR THIS
CAUSE IM FLIPPIN' READY FOR THIS.
Ifinallyhaveinternetsagain ouo
Which means art of course guys. XD Later today I plan on unviellling some things I've been working on lately, including a all new Honeythief reboot, some E-R art, the WIP of the 7th volume cover of E-R, andddd the scanned traditional pages of alllll 4 mangas! ^w^
(Also E-R Novel Chapters hush hush >wo)
Not a lot of summer left, and thanks to issues and me moving and such a lot was taken outa me, but I still plan on making the rest of this summer as colorful with art as I can possibly get. X"D Thank you all for sticking through this with me, and you will all be hearing from me, reallllll seeoon ;3 ~
YOU GUYS FLIPPING READY FOR THIS
CAUSE IM FLIPPIN' READY FOR THIS.
Ifinallyhaveinternetsagain ouo Which means art of course guys. XD Later today I plan on unviellling some things I've been working on lately, including a all new Honeythief reboot, some E-R art, the WIP of the 7th volume cover of E-R, andddd the scanned traditional pages of alllll 4 mangas! ^w^
(Also E-R Novel Chapters hush hush >wo)
Not a lot of summer left, and thanks to issues and me moving and such a lot was taken outa me, but I still plan on making the rest of this summer as colorful with art as I can possibly get. X"D Thank you all for sticking through this with me, and you will all be hearing from me, reallllll seeoon ;3 ~
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Devious Journal Entry
4 min read
Alright, I don't like mingling my home life with my art life, to me, art here and on other art websites is purely professional, so I don't rant or anything like that here, but I guess I have to now, since my personal life is interfering in my art one so much I cannot just sit and say I'm taking a temporary leave.
I have issues with verbal abuse here in my house, my family is very awful to me and I'm bullied to the point I take blanket sheets to create a canopy around my top bunk bed to avoid them 24/7. It doesn't help, but it makes me feel safe. That is why I am gone so much, often I am punished harshly and severely for small acts, having my laptop and phone taken away so much to the point I practically don't own them. My mother says she does this because they bring me the most happiness, talking to friends and drawing, so she's taking them away for that reason. I cannot see or talk or hear from my boyfriend or my best friend, and it pushes me deeper into depression every day.
My mother has been trying to take me to counselling to frame me for bipolar disorder to behavioral dysfunctions to the point I'd cry out Munchausen Syndrome. However, all my counselors I've seen that have talked to me say I'm perfectly normal. It is the fact of my family that causes my anxiety, distress, and depression.
During a fight, my mother threatened me, so I ran to my boyfriend's house for help, leaving a note of my departure. She called the police on me anyway for "running away" and I was faced with an officer asking me what went wrong. I tried to explain my depression to her, and she said to get over it. Which if you know should not be said to a depressed person. Officer of the year award there.
So know I have to go to court and they will either send me to juvy or jail or let me go, which is very unlikely since no one has ever listened to me when I have asked for help because I am a teenager, female, and people think it is merely adolescent drama, trusting my mother's words over mine. But right now, that's not the pressing issues.
Being away from any sort of help even though crying out for it has been tough, and I self-harmed about a week or two ago, I wanted someone to see and help me perhaps, perhaps I wanted something to focus on to stop crying, or I just wanted to die, I don't know really. But I promised my boyfriend I wouldn't do it ever again. Because the next time I was upset, I wanted to do it again. It was something I was not going to get into, so I stopped. And I will continue to do so since I keep to my promises. But because of all these ordeals, I never get the chance to draw, and when I do, I can't. I have no love or inspiration for it because If my family is angry they will simply tear it to pieces if they feel like it. I wonder what's the point to drawing if no one will appreciate or see my art. Not to mention I can't get online long enough to stay active on my accounts. I was going to this summer, a summer of art, but now my things will be taken away for all of summer, because my mother knows I enjoy doing things with friends and drawing in the summer, so she took those things away.
I'll survive without help like I always seem to end up doing, but these are the true reasons why I leave here so much. I am as dedicated to art as ever on the inside, but while my psyche and environment is like this, it may not appear so. I'm sorry I disappointed everyone here and on my Instagram for lack of art, I hope things will be different once I am of legal independent age. I'm sorry everyone.
I have issues with verbal abuse here in my house, my family is very awful to me and I'm bullied to the point I take blanket sheets to create a canopy around my top bunk bed to avoid them 24/7. It doesn't help, but it makes me feel safe. That is why I am gone so much, often I am punished harshly and severely for small acts, having my laptop and phone taken away so much to the point I practically don't own them. My mother says she does this because they bring me the most happiness, talking to friends and drawing, so she's taking them away for that reason. I cannot see or talk or hear from my boyfriend or my best friend, and it pushes me deeper into depression every day.
My mother has been trying to take me to counselling to frame me for bipolar disorder to behavioral dysfunctions to the point I'd cry out Munchausen Syndrome. However, all my counselors I've seen that have talked to me say I'm perfectly normal. It is the fact of my family that causes my anxiety, distress, and depression.
During a fight, my mother threatened me, so I ran to my boyfriend's house for help, leaving a note of my departure. She called the police on me anyway for "running away" and I was faced with an officer asking me what went wrong. I tried to explain my depression to her, and she said to get over it. Which if you know should not be said to a depressed person. Officer of the year award there.
So know I have to go to court and they will either send me to juvy or jail or let me go, which is very unlikely since no one has ever listened to me when I have asked for help because I am a teenager, female, and people think it is merely adolescent drama, trusting my mother's words over mine. But right now, that's not the pressing issues.
Being away from any sort of help even though crying out for it has been tough, and I self-harmed about a week or two ago, I wanted someone to see and help me perhaps, perhaps I wanted something to focus on to stop crying, or I just wanted to die, I don't know really. But I promised my boyfriend I wouldn't do it ever again. Because the next time I was upset, I wanted to do it again. It was something I was not going to get into, so I stopped. And I will continue to do so since I keep to my promises. But because of all these ordeals, I never get the chance to draw, and when I do, I can't. I have no love or inspiration for it because If my family is angry they will simply tear it to pieces if they feel like it. I wonder what's the point to drawing if no one will appreciate or see my art. Not to mention I can't get online long enough to stay active on my accounts. I was going to this summer, a summer of art, but now my things will be taken away for all of summer, because my mother knows I enjoy doing things with friends and drawing in the summer, so she took those things away.
I'll survive without help like I always seem to end up doing, but these are the true reasons why I leave here so much. I am as dedicated to art as ever on the inside, but while my psyche and environment is like this, it may not appear so. I'm sorry I disappointed everyone here and on my Instagram for lack of art, I hope things will be different once I am of legal independent age. I'm sorry everyone.
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Contacts :3
3 min read
Hey guys! Long time no see! XD I've been off for a long time because I had my laptop taken away again and I had no way to upload art since I can't upload things with my phone. But I'm back now! ^w^ I probably won't be able to make E-R pages and etc. like I used to quite yet though, I have roughly 2 weeks until school ends and I'm running around crazy trying to get school art and assignments turned in! X"D Ontop of that, I have to study really hard for the EOC's! (French, Honors Earth Science and Honors English being the hardest ones I have to do!) So I hardly have time to art at the moment. -,w,-
Anywaysssss I thought I'd list all the places you can contact me and such and other things, a FAQ of some sorts I guess. XD Will probably fill in more stuff here as time goes on. owo
Websites I am on:
-DeviantArt: 3232warriorfan3232
*I use my DeviantArt as my main page for my Elements Revolution and Honeythief comics. Most stuff here is serious art of that or some other things.
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-Instagram: Espritecat
*Used for publicity/inspiration mostly, it's very easy to get noticed on Instagram for art! XD I upload a lot of WIPS here and current things. Art usually gets here first since I have my phone on hand all the time. I do art trades 90% here as well.
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-Youtube: warriorfan32
*occasionally used. When I do use it, it's for watching videos of my subscribers or uploading an animation or something. I "debate" a lot here. XD
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-Tapastic: Warriorfan32
*Used for uploading E-R and Honeythief, but the main star here is my E-R side story "The Wind's Way" featuring Sam and Fiire that can only be viewed on Tapastic. ;3
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-Facebook: Nicole Bowen
*Use my facebook to talk to my friends mostly. If you're not a friend, please don't add me randomly here, that's weird brah. XD If you want to get to know me, just start up a convo on any of my sites or anything, then if you want you could friend request me I guess. XD I just find it creep if a random person I don't know tries to add me is all!
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Art trades/Requests/Commissions
Art Trades:
-Currently I usually accept art trades from people that are sorta my level of art drawing, to be fair. owo I only accept 2 trades at a time, and only if I have the time. You can see if I have trades open through my Instagram profile page, (I am Kat, Kini is my friend. X3) or you could ask through a note or message on my profile here. owo
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Requests:
-I hardly ever do requests. XD Usually when I do they are for friends I know. That is all. -w-
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Commissions:
-Don't do them since I don't have a paypal. -w- Saving up for a debit card with the little allowance I get, once I do I plan on getting one then.~
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And that's all for now, see you wonderful peoples soon! ;3 ~
Anywaysssss I thought I'd list all the places you can contact me and such and other things, a FAQ of some sorts I guess. XD Will probably fill in more stuff here as time goes on. owo
Websites I am on:
-DeviantArt: 3232warriorfan3232
*I use my DeviantArt as my main page for my Elements Revolution and Honeythief comics. Most stuff here is serious art of that or some other things.
___________________________________________________________________
-Instagram: Espritecat
*Used for publicity/inspiration mostly, it's very easy to get noticed on Instagram for art! XD I upload a lot of WIPS here and current things. Art usually gets here first since I have my phone on hand all the time. I do art trades 90% here as well.
___________________________________________________________________
-Youtube: warriorfan32
*occasionally used. When I do use it, it's for watching videos of my subscribers or uploading an animation or something. I "debate" a lot here. XD
___________________________________________________________________
-Tapastic: Warriorfan32
*Used for uploading E-R and Honeythief, but the main star here is my E-R side story "The Wind's Way" featuring Sam and Fiire that can only be viewed on Tapastic. ;3
___________________________________________________________________
-Facebook: Nicole Bowen
*Use my facebook to talk to my friends mostly. If you're not a friend, please don't add me randomly here, that's weird brah. XD If you want to get to know me, just start up a convo on any of my sites or anything, then if you want you could friend request me I guess. XD I just find it creep if a random person I don't know tries to add me is all!
___________________________________________________________________
Art trades/Requests/Commissions
Art Trades:
-Currently I usually accept art trades from people that are sorta my level of art drawing, to be fair. owo I only accept 2 trades at a time, and only if I have the time. You can see if I have trades open through my Instagram profile page, (I am Kat, Kini is my friend. X3) or you could ask through a note or message on my profile here. owo
____________________________________________________________________
Requests:
-I hardly ever do requests. XD Usually when I do they are for friends I know. That is all. -w-
____________________________________________________________________
Commissions:
-Don't do them since I don't have a paypal. -w- Saving up for a debit card with the little allowance I get, once I do I plan on getting one then.~
____________________________________________________________________
And that's all for now, see you wonderful peoples soon! ;3 ~
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